Assalammu’alaikum Wr. Wb. (Peace be upon Thou all)
This present day, I guess I have arrived @ a time in my life, a rosier (or even bleak in opposite, I hope not) time I’ve never even thought that I could be part of, before. I’ve been becoming a member of my family for quite sometimes, a small family I would say, and even though it has been my own for quite sometimes, more than 6 years from my weeding ceremony, it was like yesterday. Would “yesterday” be good or bad thing, I’d rather keep it personal.
I was beginning to realize that on every wedding of my member of so called “my big family” I attended, always thinking that every moment in my life, I felt the life path on ward isn’t going always to be easy. Every time I walk thru that path, it seems that I was feeling unfamiliar to it, it’s like I had never been there before. It’s like I’m lost thru that path of time, a precious one I’d rather say.
I’ve heard one guru mentioned there was a big different between “winners” and “losers”. Losers are likely to complain on bad things happened surrounding their lives, but the opposites are also true, these people are striving to make their goals to be fulfilled, the most desired one in their lives. There is no short cut or special prescription on life, it is only what we have chosen to do or not do.
I was definitely aware that the past would never return to us in any way, but sometimes I forgot (overwhelmed by it) that the future is awaiting. I believe that I, with all my insight’s limitation, can do much better, to achieve something in my life, something about happiness, and I believe on doing it
I also heard that the biggest defeat in my life is whenever I put aside the most precious asset I only have. The precious asset would be The Qur’an, the holy book I should always refer to, The only one I always rely on as the book of prayer & the source of ultimate knowledge.
I saw the great people from the past, I witnessed good people in the present, but I hope I’ll be one of them someday.
My biggest enemy, perhaps, would be myself, cause every time I would rather do or not do is because I wanted to, not because what others had to say about it. May be, I was not strong enough to realize that life is all about what I chose doing or not doing. I was too afraid of the consequences, afraid that people I love will leave me, and never got a chance to apologize of what I’ve done wrong.
Perhaps, I’m too weak or too dull to understand what the good things I’m supposed to do or follow, or even worse, too ungrateful for others done to me. I don’t have a very good recollection but I think I may just try my best of my ability to be thankful to the God since He, the only one, has given me so much in this life. If I was given more chances (or being smarter on realizing them) perhaps I would ‘ve done more and be thankful even more.
I ponder I should make more efforts on my daily prayer so I can be more thoughtful of my life. 
I predict my path to happiness is not even close to simple, it’s full with bad enticement, covered by obstacles, and more importantly fooled by self laziness. To be honest, it’s not what I paid to myself that makes me happy but what we have given up to others, so than others are happy, eventually it will make me happy.
Well, I imagine that I am in process of learning and listening to others what they got to say about reaching a goal in life. In short, I still got time and it’s better to use it wisely cause it’ll certainly will run out.
So cheers, and enjoy my life I guess…
wallahua’lam bishowab
ghifi