My Life’s Inspiration

Assalammu’alaikum wr. wb.

I always ask to myself, what is my purpose in life? This is a life of an ordinary person, a life that is far from glamour, a life that no one ever imagine. Well I have a quite lists of those now, but perhaps only a few seem within my grasp.

When I work on my computer, I saw status updates from various people in the social networks (say twitter or facebook), some are meaningful others are not, some are talking about having difficulty of sleeping, some talk about small things (sometimes angry stuff), some say words of prayer,  it’s like a beautiful noise. But even if it’s far from a purpose of this life, I guess what important is that it matters.  The virtual world makes me able to see what people really care about.

Reflection is a big word for me.  I try to look at a mirror of me and see myself through, but sometimes I just can’t see easily, and I have a blurry kind of dream.  A dream I would never have when I was small.  It is very uneasy when you need to turn back around looking, I never know until people start helping me remember.  It is a good thing to have a little perspective from others; since on the virtual world we never felt intimidated by others, it is far distant from real face to face contact.  I guess having face to face contact is becoming rather tedious today, when I don’t wanna say the truth, I just put a seal on my mouth (though my heart telling me to be honest), suppressing the unpleasant facts. In virtual world, you aren’t afraid to criticize or scold or praise others easily, I envision the virtual world will turn into the real things somehow, but it has to be in a better way.

My reflection so far is my flesh & blood, called family. My daily life today has moved tremendously fast, and I can’t somehow deny this.  Once in a blue sky, I prefer going back to the basic, that’s when you are disconnected from the virtual world. Disconnected makes me able to think fresh, to see the world as is, even though sometimes I felt a little bit old fashion.

It was like last night when I accompanied my friend, a mature confident profile I would say, she is not even close to my average age, but she still has a dream doing things with her own creation that may help making people life to improve, so inspiring.

Though, I have mine, but it’s really far from perfect.  I just got the impression that by helping someone else on doing whatever she/he does best, it’s like I am helping myself (through unconscious mind ).

wallahua’lam bi showaab

Insya Allah my life still goes on…